>[ Treasure the people around you, especially your friends.]<

2006-01-29T08:29:00.000-08:00

Buzz...yox everybody...haha its been a long long long long time since i last blogged..or rather..i gave up on blogging..hmm a few months ago? well..i decided to blog agaIn as i thought it will be necessary.Hmm..tommy left ytd..at 2.45pm..on friday night we had a farewell party for him..or rather..he organized it...everybody teared uncontrollably..having tommy to leave us is a terrible feeling..though our friendship started one year ago...he too crossed my path and made my life more interesting. I didnt cry..and i am damn surprise..(im a cry baby) perhaps i was overwhelmed by grief..and everything happened so fast...the impact of tommy's absence hit me on the next day..i read everyone's blog..and my heart ache..(u can feel it) at that moment i felt like i have so much to say to him..his departing words to be were " i've learnt so much from you, u have been very helpfuL.." i didnt know what to reply but to utter" take care in UK" *hit myself with a bat* arghs...i should have booked him the whole afternoon and poured out my thoughts to him...*andrew always do things without thinking through the brain* anyway..he left..just waiting for march to come..haix...i totally agree with kaiying..such things are part and parcel of life...just be grateful that they have once crossed ur path and layed down a chapter in your life..i think as we grow older...we have matured and began to see things from a different point..i see in everybody's msn nick..."treasure this....before..its too late" me too, wrote that..becuz thats very true...however..our words are always louder than our actiOns..often we are so close to this particular friend that we don give them the basic respect...and becuz of that..the "victim" may be affected and feel that they are not appreciated...rmb friends..never allow the invitation of intimacy to be destroyed by the contempt of familiarity...time files...before u know it..its O'lvls...and then everybody is going to go separate ways..how sad..yeah it is...but...we got to move on..haix..i always wanted to excel in the area of relationship...not just BGR..but all kinds of relationshIp..the very reason is becuz..in my life...(hey 15 yrs k) ive failed in a lot of relationships..be it..friendship...or even BGR. i thought it was high time to pin point on my weakness and change for the better...ive always thought i was a gd friend...however..im not actually that good...i don really respect people's privacy...and i utter whatever i like..and want to know everything...tat i shouldnt know...in other words im KPO...but..im not..ive always wanted to instill the value of Compassion into my life...i want to become helpfula and care for ppl...i guess ive over done it...so sorry..in particular to Joel..i will not go into details..but i guess i have been a lousy friend..who always complained that im not being appreciated...i think there is such thing called retribution...early in my sec 3 years..i used to be very confident in class..as im quite well liked( i hope i was)...and i like to disturb my classmates..but now..haha..i really don like to go to school le...people dislike me..for one reason or another...so..usually during recess..ill be alone..and all that...so ill just sleep..actually im not tired..but just don feel like...facing people..im trying to get use to such life...so i really hOpe sec 4 will end soon..friends are so impt ppl in life...they make u cry..luff..smile..angry..all kinds of stuff happen when u are with friends..but teens like us in such age..will fall in love yea...so..all my really good frens (hope they are) are sort of attached? yeah..so..u know when boys have gurls..they passion for everything dies..except for their gal..and becuz of this..i was quite alone...cuz..whatever i shared with the boy..the gurl will know....people do change after they get into a relationship...they really change..though those ppl will say "nononono i nv change" crap k...and i really hate these ppl..i dunno why..maybe its jealousy?getting into a relationship is so demanding...so to people out there..good luck...hmm...im really tired of my life...really...its uninteresting and...lonely..im nickanmed" zi bi zen"..to ppl who call me that...if al of u knw me well enuff...ure know why i like to be alone"...anyway...i know alot of ppl make fun of me..as a christian..and say a lot of scarstic remarks..haix..thats sad too..=(...hmm i tot iver found a life long friend...a few months ago..but it seems that its not that true...haha...sOmetimes loooks play such a big role in the world..if ure ugly..ur ugly and will get discriminated..badly...but if u are gd looking..no matter how bad ur are..ppl will overlook it...i guess thats the society..tHanks mum..for giving birth to an ugly boy..haha..ive so much more to say...but im...loss for words..before i end..i just wan to thank this particular buddy of mine...he used to be my bud..but not now anymore..haha..erm..i've done alot of things that make u displeased...but just wanna say that i didnt did all those things on purpose..all are out of good will...but ive promised the both of u..that from that day onwards...ill slowly detached myself from both of u...so sry...i really tot i found some realiable friends..haha....anyway..i really hope ill be gone..really...life is demanding..and exhausting...i cant really take it..i'll continue the next time...buzz..

2005-08-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

buzz.. A conversation with Mr Teo,
Kelvin : you have to increase you CAPICITY
Andrew: what is capitcity?
Kelvin: tell me the difference between a headprefect and a sec 1 trainedd prefect
Andrew: more responsibilities..work..attention..as well as the ABILITY TO LEAD AND SERVE
Kelvin: You got it! the ability to do something thus, increasing ur capacity means getting yourself involved in many things at one time and yet still excel in every areas
Andrew: oh it got it!

Its always better to get urself occupied and do something meaningful then sitting in front of a computer for 12 hours..i have so many things to do and i know i would excel! so i don have much times to spend smouldering anger or hatred..i also don have time to care of people who think they are wonders..yea its totally a waste of my time..i spend time with people that are worthy of my time! Friendship is meant to move. only a few stays. these are the few!

buzz..

2005-07-29T23:14:00.000-07:00

buZz..just came back from Amaths lesson..haha..every week, after i return from my tution, i would learn something useful from Miss Ng. Just now, she told about the conseuqences if we act rashly and beat people up. So to the people reading my blog : Don fight back. We must have the last luff!! On our way back, we were also toking about ghosts all those stuff...and i asked joel if he believes..he doesnt believe which is nth wrong! cuz living in a mutil racial and religion country, we must learn how to RESPECT and ACCEPT other people's opinions and practises, take for eg, if u think this particular object is ugly, doesnt mean every other people who sees it must agree with u. different people have different tastes, likes and dislikes.

Sun Hao is a pain in the neck. arghs he bullied Mdm Rosiani who is like 7months pregnant!! arghs...if u dare to touch our dustbin...we will demand for u to leave 3e1 immeadiately..erm anway to clarify things i have alrdy forgiven him but i have nt forget the matter its recently his attitdue was so worst! i cnt stand. Mdm hua is also not bias. i think we should learn how to see things at a higher maturity. erm mayb there are misunderstandings, cuz i intially also tot she was bias! haix..sun hao..u are giving us a lot of problems u know? gat a hell out of 3e1 for god's sake!

I found out that i enjoy spending my time in the prefects' room with the prefects =D i can actually share my burden with them...erm..mayb the other jyyains..my classmates cannot really understand cuz they are not caught in out situations but they too are impt! w/o them our lives will be more miserable too. so to all friends of the prefects : Help, Support, Encourage us!

To the prefects: A lot of times i wish to write all my troubles here but i fear i might affect other people so i prefered to write in my own journal. More importantly if anyone of u face any problems i am here to help =D DOn get over tired and stressed up we must look out for one another. No1 walks alone. thanks ya! especially the exco members T_T

To my friends: i may not be able to be with all of you..and sometimes becuz of my workload i may flare up easily but i seek understanding from al of you although sometimes i will say things like : aiyar i got meeting la cnt go this cnt go that" i want to join de..but its becuz of the stress and all other things..ya..so thanks

Buzzz..

2005-07-27T18:35:00.000-07:00

Buzz..yeah i am back again..haha..its been a long time since i last blog and a lot of things had happen..most of them are bad..but i have emerge out of all the problems as a much better person..time really flies..in an twinkling of any eye, before we know, we will be sitting for our O'lvls..haix..which also means we are going to graduate le..haix will miss all my frens T_T and the prefectorial board T_T
These few days has been very tiring..have meeting almost everyday..luckily i got permission by Mr dan very man koh to come for taf once a week..haix..tml taking Napfa retest..cheebong leh!!
Currently, we are in the process of preparing for the teachers' day..arghs hope everything will be done smoothly and the teachers will have a great time and most of all hope that from now onwards the school will trust us more and give us the support that the board needs. Mr Ho is right, i cannot work alone..so i really need to thank my exco members for giving me the support..i am sure we will have a lot fun together..and also my frens!! who is trying their best nt to break sch rules thank you all! T_T
My exco members (top 11)
Cheng Ying Ming aka Muddy ying:
A girl whom i always quarrell, bicker, fight with. she sucks! lol i sucks too..but after we fight...we will become gd partners again...lolx! so sorry veggie for always hurling vulgarities at you! haha lets hope we can bring the board to a higher level

Wani:
A very cheerful girl who nv fails to encourge me..always offer a helping hand..always there to bring fun and luffter to all of us! Caring and compassionate!

Joel aka Shifu:
Life long learner =D who nv fails to tuck in his shirt! =x the quietest among us..but also the most mysterious one..haha..the smile on his face will make ur anger fade away and brightens our day, enthusiastic person! Joel is willing to help whenever u need help! but one thing, dunno the meaning of "ban electronic items"=x

Yitan aka the person who always drown:
Welfare Head. Always play with wani. another person who bring fun and luffter to us! enthusiastic! and fun loving! but one thing dunno the meaning of " cannot eat outside the canteen"

Ceyu aka Brother aka Cloud:
Attitude is awful. awfully good! very playful, but is one of an example of "servant leader" offer help, and perform to the best of his ability.

Esther aka fish who knows how to kpkb:
Creative thinker. Confident. Helpful but react very fast..too fast..and bad tempered! just like me!

Atiqah aka atiko aka prostitute:
ChiobU! very funny..100% birng luffter to us with every single action she does. helpful and caring! looks confident even if she is trembling in her heart!!

Huiting:
Caring and compassionate.

2005-06-27T19:30:00.000-07:00

buzz...just came back from the investiture reheresal..dog tired now arghs...but the reheresal was fun! i love the walking in part..makes me feel as if i am a model =x haha...i am really getting nervous as this wednesday is the Prefects' Investiture :S oh no! hope everything goes on smoothly. ok its the first day of school..monay blues..nagged by Mr harris, singapura, and blind this morning...yea..just the same old stuff..lame! we also shared some experiences with our teachers.and had some good luff during phy n MT lessons..from 14th july- 16th Aug...Miss Angeline Ong Hui Miin and Mdm Hua HOng Xia will be our form and co form teachers respectively..LOL make me ho nio~ haha..arghs the bitch act as if she can controls everyone again...lol cannot stand her "act serious look" make me wanna luff out loud =x moroever..don try to be on gd terms with me..cuz we are not at all =D shoo! Looking forward to this SAt's tonning and Sun's Outing...and dunno when jiahao wants to watch initial D? mayb i shld give it a try? hmm..still considering..ppl persuade me to go! LOL..make me wanna watch =x! buzz..

2005-06-23T00:46:00.000-07:00

buZz..wow just came back from our last gathering..lol bBQ! haha..had so much fun and laughter..the only pity was that some of them could not join us..people like jiahao..tiong meng...claudia..lol..just to name a few..anyway i didnt join them to watch the movie as such movie aint my cup of tea..i am nt a car person neither am i a craz for edison and jay..LOL..so me and valerie (who is also not interested) went to prepare the night's BBQ while they enjoy their movie..we met up with ky and her mum who offered to give us a ride..so we went to GIANT to buy all our food..we bought like food like chicken wings..sting ray..crab meat..hot dog..bla bla bla *don drool kae* then we proceeded to buy all the non food items..after putting everything at ky's hse..me n val head stra8 to Sheng Siong to buy otah..haha..
Our BBQ started at ard....6.30 becuz of some idoits teenagers who act lian but nt very lian..and act beng and ended up like retards..LOL they did not book the BBQ pits and act as if they had book.stupid! go and bbq on ur arm pits la.. =x..after chasing them away..*act* we started our bbq..haha..we luff and eat...eat n luff...had a lot of fun! haha leslie started to play some oldies and sang..hey mai siao siao..LESLIE TAY is a 4th grade pianist and can sing hokkien oldies very well kae..but on the other hand..his wife..ivy cannot stand such songs...LOL...LESLIE was so feirce scolded me when i wanted to take a chicken wing to eat..then i act angry..but in the end -.- i cnt helped but arm chio -.- LOL! while we were having a great time...we were diaoed by a gang of ah bengs..lol made me so uncomfortable -.- we really had a great time...laughing....joking..rolling..jumping..singing -.- LOL potential attention seekers! haha...then ivy cracked a joke: when a dog have a heart attack..they will whimper..then she made a whimper sound..made me luffed like anything..LOL!..then after some time..they started playing poker cards..for every card that u have left at the end of the game..u have to do 5 push up..in the end i need to do 15...but i went to one side and move my hips..something like fcuking..haha..then leslie caught me...ok i am a weakling..then play play play....i keep on scold ivy for making too much noise..then leslie like nt very happy -.- cuz i say ivy shut up b4 i poke ur nor nor LOL!..ssry ivy and leslie i must learn how to use appropriate words..LOL! they were other many cold jokes that made every1 luffed like siao..but too lazy to type out..oh yar! joesph join us when were almost finishing..so he ate the marsh mellow -.-haha..haix..this will be the last gathering le...nxt holiday would be preparing 4 Olvls le...haix...i don wanna graduate! i will miss all my frens =(!!!!!! anyway..i am very proud of myself..i manage to organize a bbq despite of the time frame..like 2 days b4? LOL thanks ivy n vanessa..my co-organizers =x...haha..haix!! i wanna have more gathering!!! =( I like to thank : Valerie, Kaiying Vanessa Ivy, Michelle, Ying Ming,Esther, Ceyu, Edwin,Leslie,Joel,Yitan,Ah neh,Joseph,Curry...i had a great time!! and i hope all of you too share the same feelings as me =D! may our friendship last forever!..buzzz..

2005-06-12T21:30:00.000-07:00

buZzz..yipee!! im back from hong kong!! haha..i really had a good time..especially eating, shopping and sight seeing..haha..ok lets get to the point..im going to describe everything that ive gone through to all of you..every single thing im going to reveal is 100% true and realiable!! don get to excited after reading..especially the part where i would mention what did all the horny guys do in the night~ heez..it started off quite well..we met at boon lay mrt cntrl station..every1 was buzzing with excitement and finally after a 1 and half hour journey..we arrived at the airport..took a group photograph and off we go to hong kong..bloody Mr Siva..i was asked to introduced the start of our educational trip (our main motive there was actually to learn more abt hk) damn it..the video is going to be shown to the whole school T_T!! ok..for the first time in my life..i sat the ValuAir...from the name..u can guess wad we will get..like what they always say..you pay peanuts, u get monkey..we arrived in hong kong...4 hrs later and has a great dinner..after that it was checking in to the hotel..at first we(tm me jh yt) were very uncomfortable..but slowly things started to get heated up...leong aik,dickson,ivan,alex,kengsian and the four of us became horny -.- lol i dun know if ive used to correct word, we started peeping at a old lady undressing in the apartment just opposite our hotel..we really had a good time..running all about and hiding around to prevent gettin caught red handed..LOL!! had so much fun luffing at one another..one thing i found really funny was when alex call my room..Alex: halo..bla bla bla. Andrew: who are you, are u joining us to watch porn -.-..whahaha!!..kk thats all for day 1...we slept quite late..ard 2+!! rise and shine!! it was our big day..we had a wonderful dim sun breakfast and a visit to Hk's industrial sites..which are 99% abandoned, this is becuz many factories and industries had moved into mainland China..the rest of the info i would nt touch..haha..cuz it will be very long! we also visited their sci centre..quite boring..nt much things as compared to our OWN sci centre..haha...after that we visited a secondary school in hk...we had some games with them and were toured around by a beautiful lady called bonnie, 18 yrs old..her english was, WOW! she speaks clearly..but its obvious she has lousy presentation skills as she was looking at a script(small cards)..but nice try young lady! erm quite alot of handsome boys and pretty gals..especially those who entertained us!! bonnie!! HEHEz..anyway a guy caught my attention..he played badminton with ting keng..but by the way he dress...i think he also plays bb..he really had a good body to drool about T_T so envious of hiM!! arghs! he also has nice features..haha..bonnie! best! rosy cheeks, pony tail..wow!!! haha..ivan was in lOve with her ..blushing after being dsiao by ivy n peiyi..haha..i also sort of tok to their headprefect..haha..young decent looking man....haha!!we has dinner and visited the Ladies street..wow alot of things happen there..all i have to say is..nxt time i go! i will nt ponder so much and i will buy everything i think i like!! arghs!! on the same nite..we has wanton noodles for supper..yummy..!!! haha..3rd day came..haha..we visited the Ocean Park!! althouht its the second time i went....but...i had a diff feeling..i felt like a child =) cute and adorable =x haha..tried the viking ship which i shout like no one's business..went into the Atoll reef where is was amazed by the diff species of sea organisms...they were HUGE..really HUGE!!! i was also a few cm away from a gigantic sting ray!!! WOW!!!!!!! the aquarium was BIG VERY VERY BIG!!! WOW!!!haha!!we did a little shopping..where i bought some clothes and a pants..haiz regret not changing more $$!!! there were so much things for me to shop!!!ok forget about shopping going to hong kong with family at the end of the year again!! haha...erm we the proceed to Victoria Peak where we over look the whole landscape of hong kong island and kowloon island..terrific sight! but wads more exciting is the "House of Wax" they were so real!!! the wax museum housed aroud 100 0dd famous ppl in the world..ppl like LEe kuan yew....Hitler...Prince Charles..haha..took a lot of pics..i also kissed some of them..haha i even touched a few of their breast!! so funny!! wahahha =x k i know im horny..but just for the fun..me and ivy even sucked thier nip =x!! haha disgusting rite..but the scene was really funny!!! the wax figures were very very very real..especially the eyes!!ok..after that we went back to the hotel..had our supper..but wad await us..it nothing but trouble..as it was the last nite...the boys decided to asked the gals to joined us in BED! bleahs..so things went on smoothly and we had a great time luffing...rolling about..crying..jumping..we got so overwhlemed that we forgot Mr Siva was just nxt nxt nxt door..our screams and laughter was so loud that it move the particles in the air and the particles vibrate so violently that the sound travelled to Mr Siva's room...this was what happen,
Knock knock, claudia went to see who was at the door..Claudia: *peep thru the door hole* !!!! let out a gasp!! sprint to the bed..every1 know that Mr siva is standing at the door *at the same time mr siva was knocking the door so hard that it might collaspe anytime* mich hid in the cupboard, claudia in the toilet, ivy n van on the floor..jh sat on the bed and act as if he was watcing sports chnl..ks put on his discman..i remained calm, took my noodles and open e door..i was trying to act that nth has happen and i was having my supper..but! that indian man..came into my room...and..guess what...the chaotic scene cause the glas to hide BUT w/o their shoes..so siva saw the shoes..and he asked "why are there so many pairs of shoes" one of then was even hello kitty tat belong to teo.ommg..i remain silent..and was about to luff out..and that siva..kpkb abit and went out..LOL!!! right after he went out, all of them came out of their hiding places and we luffed like for another 3mins...then came knocks on the door again..siva.again. SIva: how long must i wait for all of you to come out??!!! LOL I CNT HELPED BUT LUFFED IN MY HEART! cuz van n claudia was holding 2 bowls of unfinished wanton noodles in their hand..whahha..hey siva fark off..don try 3e1 okie! 3e1 +3e2 =3e3 hor! mai siao siao!ka ni noui!! wahahha our E-language!!we packed but then in the end the boys ended up in the galgs room again...lol..slpet quite soundly!! until ard 6.30am we went back to our own rooms..ok on the last day..all of us were dog tired..sang some songs and off we go to Airport! cb siva kp me again..for dropping the camera..I am the CHAIRMAN of the fotogrpaphy club hor..drop the camera 100 times also nth happen..=x wahhaha..hmmm the journey back to sg was a fruitful one..the air attendant was so cute and funny..she thanked us in front of the whole plane of passengers and sang us the remix verison of "sway" haha!! really had a good time in hk..really missed that place..regretted not bringing enuff money!!! arghs!!!!i 've made a lot of friends...especially the sec 5 and sec 4..realy had a good time with them...i had learnt alot from this trip and noticed that the lifestyle and living standard og hongkongers and singaporeans are smilar..every1 loves to shop and eat...haha...anyway i was impressed by shermin's photography skill..my senior leh!! mai siao siao haha!! its has been a fruitful journey and i wlould like to thank, Mr SIva (k la don say i nv thank u idoit) MR lOw, Mrs tan, Miss wong, nick, ivy, claudia, van, jiahao, michelle, tiong meng, yitan, peiyi, keng siang, dickson, adeline, june, leong aik aka ahma, alex, ivan,shermin, theresa,chin ho, sean,orville,eng kiat, shi zheng,alison kah hoe and ting keng..had a great time with all of you and hope our frenship will not end =)..i also liked to thank every1 who had send us to hk and recieve us frm hk..haha..now that im back in sg..there are tonnes of work waiting ofr me to do..guess i have to start...erm ill upload the pics..once i get the usb cable!! buzz..

2005-06-07T22:28:00.000-07:00

bUZz..hey peeps...its like 2 more days to hong kong..and i am not at all excited..hmm mayb the ride to airport would be one..but other then that..nothing to make me go "yeah!! woo!!".We had a board meeting today..and to my disappointment..things didnt turn out as i wish =(...ying ming is the vice head 05...oh no! i am going to suffer...i just cannot work well with her...things usually go frm bad to worst..we just cannot see eye to eye..and when i raise my voice..just to make her see who's de boss..she crys!! arghs..ok nvm..afterall i must admit she has higher IQ and EQ than me =D! hope to have a wonderful time with her..and may our eye sees each other as good frens..haha..i would wan to thank all the prefects who had congragulated me..i really hope that we will have fun together and..all of you will journey this adventure with me...an adventure where we the leaders of Juying Secondary influence the people around us to achieve success =D! sounds aspiring? sounds promising! sure it does! so come join the prefectorial board and get two barbie dolls free..grab it while stock last...ok crap! to all the exco: Our target has yet to be achieved, united we stand divided we fall, so lets put our hands as well has heart together to make a difference in every one * ommgg so touching..every1 plz cry* haha..had seoul garden for lunch with jh val wy and the LATE ky..the cost of it burnt a hole in my pocket..awwww.....but nvm..as long as we don do this often i think i can afford it..haha..we then went to causeway point..i bought a sameul and kelvin.berms..$25..which i tot was relatively affordable..haha..and then i was forced to take neoprints with val jh n ky..*wy left earlier to accompany Mr Koh to have his dinner*...ugly! yucks..terrible!! yea..i am describing them..wahaha =x erm..i lost my ezlink card..again..it was less than 4 days old..aww..how pitiful..guess i have to make a new one..after the hong kong trip..oh yar *pls go back to the seoul garden scene* as we had to wait for our piano queen to finish her concert..we wait like for 4 hrs...but at the same time we filled our almost full stomach with beef..chicken hot dogss..wadeva..then came this grp of students..guess they are frm some church...erm sat down beside us...one on them..his voice was excatly like desmond..so we decided to record down his voice by placing jh's fone near him..and acting that we are smsing..lol so funny..one of them very gay lor~ haha but out of the so many guys n gals..not one gal was attractive..=x but there was one boy who was quite outstanding =x lol i am nt gay la! haha..anyway..today was a very taxing day for me..it had drained all my engery away and i feel like a log now!! arghs!!..ok tml going to have a nice tan~ haha act beach boy ok..thats all for now..NB:plz continue to support me! u guys know wad im saying la~ haha..buZz..

2005-05-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

buzz..this few days were terrible,horrible..i feel xtremely irritated and angry and frustarted and sad. never once a happy moment, even if there is,its with the prefects and nt forgetting the plmgss girls! i hate them all..they caused all these unhappiness in me, they don do what they say they are all hypocrites! my comments were nt heed, i was treated like a dirt, just a speck. i have mental problems, so what? its just stress....i keep forgetting things..i cry when i cannot get things done! i dunno why! in such 'dark' circumstances, the promised light has yet to come, no helping hands...the ones closes to me has did nth...its the ones tat has gt nth to do with me that lend me a helping hand, they suck. i suck too. No1 wans to go out with me..u know why? cuz i am a boring person and the activities i do are too. people like to go town n take neoprints while i am always the wet blanket that remains anti social.i don like big grps and i detest people who change things last min and influence people ard them! i hate this and i hate that! the sunken ship has gone beyond repair..i decided to built another one..yet..its always flooded with water and is drifting ard aimlessly..something is wrong? yes..but the reason has yet to been revealed..i hate people who gossip about me..1 time i ignore 2 time i ignore..3 time? pls fark off. When u don like a person, pls act like u don like him, be real! don go ard telling ppl u hate this person YET u still stick to him or her, i am disgusted by this kind of behaviour..when u dOn like a person SHOW IT, don act! if u think wad i said so far are "mad"...so be it..told ya i have mental problems~ i am living in a world of vengences and hatred...i am petty and unreasonable..i hate myself...arghs...i am using my work to bury my unhappiness and sadness yet no1 understands..soemtimes...ppl who i dislike are also the person whom i like...i suck.soon i will become one of the top 6 in the PB...i really don know how to handle my work, friends..and all the other stress..lets pray that the nxt time i blog would nt be in MPH..buzz

2005-05-18T22:10:00.000-07:00

My Story

A twist of fate was all it took
Leukaemia was the diagnosis made

So began the chemo drugs and hospital stays
Six months treatment or so they said..

But six months come and six months go

The promised sun has yet to shown
High dependency,surgical and ICU
Hospital wards,I've all been to

18 months later, I'm already free

BMT's over its back to school for me
But what bad thing? ths "O" levels are near

How will i do?My dominant fear

The first step's the hardest, they always say
Boy, were they right, but i took it anyway
Strived and perservered all the way
L1R5 7 at the end of the day

This is my story ,every word is true
A little message from me to you
Pain and despair are not here to stay
Courage and faith will guide your way.

Quoted from Tham Shee Leng,

17 yrs old, Victoria Junior College.

PS: erm this poem is actually taken from the TODAY newspaper..i found it rather inspiring..i really took my hat off this person after i read his story..on how he overcome his diffculties when he was undergoing the long struggle of Leukaemia! He really deserve our respect, how many 17 year old can say such things? how many 17 year old can overcome such difficulties? i really hope all of you,after reading my blog will be inspired by Shee Leng, no many can do it, can you?

2005-05-17T19:30:00.000-07:00

bUZz..cb hong kan knn la! farker damn koh ask me go TAF CLUB! ask him hong kan lah go fark his faggots in geylang la! no busniess then kp his student! then everytime in school fark tat chao ah lian! buey tahan! ccb la! arghs alrdy so bz then ask me enter his country club he tot he asking fer membership ar..ask so many ppl join! how i wish i can take his foto when he farking his faggots then i paste in every corner of sch ar! fark sia this gay! wish his motorcycle drive half way explode...then his muscles kanna smashed! to peices..then we will know the truth..all his muscles made of plastic...then pump air la! gay lar him! he think he gt muscles then can kpkb issit..ask him go hell la! juying siao de la...employ this kind of gay..mrs hon also eyes gt stamp..chooose this kind of buddy..buey tahan! cb la! bUzz..

2005-05-16T20:06:00.000-07:00

buzz!! yipee!! mye is over!! wooo...now i can slack!! hahahahaha...*the smile was wiped off my face* so wad if exam days are over..now i have this n that...occupied almost my entire may+ june holidays! arghs! anyway..before i go on to moan abt my hardship...i had quite a great time today..lol..me mich jh n ky when to jp to eat mac breakfast...yummy! but nt full at all...then we went to mich hse to see dennis..so cute and tiny..haha! just like me =x! anyway..we also created a MASTERPEICE! we drew the famous PROFESSOR SNAPE on mich's white board!! haha..had a great time luffing and rolling about..she was damn ugly lor! haha...with all the middle finger and round body!! whaha..=x ok i better nt let Potion Master see this! mich also intro to me a name call "feifei" found it so cute =x! Below is a list of things that occupied my holidays!*moans*
17 may, 11am-6pm, Briefing with pri sch kids, attend course, meet miss ong
19 may, 4.30pm-7.30pm, Recee at WCP
25 may, 2-3pm,Submission of proposals, meet Mrs Saz
26 may, Whole day, assist in sec 1 oreintation for Payer labar gals --> mafan leh!
26- jun, final run thru of SKY camp, source for logistics

the list goes on n on..arghs! so tired..BUT i know its all worthwhile so those people who like to leave negative remarks abt prefectorial board and wadeva i am doing..go to hell..ok mayb its partly my fault..it shld nt even complain in front of all of you!..bUzz..

2005-05-14T22:00:00.000-07:00

bUzz..ok i didnt wanna blog..i came to blog becuz of teo tart kae! haha..ok firstly i wanna thank teo tart for treating me eat mac..haha..anyway i realise that if one doesnt blog regularly, he would find that blogging at one shot is terrible..and the he is refering to me...lols!!..so much things happen in these recent weeks..i have my MYE exams..this and that..arghs..But all in all..life is still the same old same..haha...lets tok abt my MYE first..i failed my PHY and AMATHS..hai..i really dunno how to face my papers..lol..nvm..no use crying over spilt milk..*ok i use milk nt becuz of any SPECIAL MEANING K!* blame it on my gd english =x..overall, i am going to do badly! sobz..toking abt phy, actually Mr Teo is quite a interesting teacher..*Vanessa beams* quite lame..and like to act as if he is OUR generation..use words like "yea" haha! =x...anyway ytd me mich jh n ky took a cab..then the xialan taxi driver COMMANDED us to put on our seat belts..i gt buuey song..and decided to slam his bloody door..so in the end we sort of quarreld...he got out of his taxi and wanted to pick a bone with us..i started to act blur..and said that it was becuz of his damn auto door kae! then he said that he wanted to complain to our sch..wadeva..majiam he can see our sch name..yar yar..we frm JYIAN sec..whaha=x oh yar..ting wei..sorry hor..i nv listen to u..this adviser..ask me nt to ton to study for my chem..but the stubborn me..decided to ton..cuz i was very scared tat i did nt have enuff time..haha..today was a terrible yet fun day..haha..in the morning..i saw a dead cat...horrible..lying motionless in the middle of the road with its internal organs...spilling out..obviously it was knock down by a car or something..haix..after i see it..i got so upset..back at home..mich jh n ky came and our motive was to study bio n bake cheesecake..in the end after spending so much $$ all contributed by me..the plan failed..gt so fed up..cuz no1 like came out to help or something..no1=refering to those who agreed to help me bake cheesecake...didnt study bio too!! argh..cuz van ym n ks came to my hse..haha..so slack..therafter yt n tm came to my hse..and we lame..and sgam songs..haha i like this kind of life..the number of people must nt be too big..then..can have fun n%

2005-05-04T17:40:00.000-07:00

bUzz..arghs...had a SS SBQ test ytd..in the end i didnt complete cuz i know am nt going to do well...i just cnt write...dunno why...i gt frustrated after that..sometimes i really hate my life as well as the people around me. i then got back my geog pop quiz..got 5/10 i got frustrated again and i crushed the paper...think jiahao was shocked by what i did..well i thiink i intend to do it to my SS paper tml...bla bla bla..alot of things happened ytd la..but no mood to tok abt it..today i had my interview with Mr Harris , Mrs Tay(almost typed tray) and Mr Singh...at first i was nervous and was like a cat in hot bricks...but after awhile..i calmed down and talked naturally....i really hope to become the External Welfare..haha..anyway Mr Teo gave us his email..saying that we could contact him if we have any Phy questions! haha..soo good..Mdm Mak came to class today and told me tat i won the first prize for essay competiton..so what? i copied the idea frm the net wad...=x so far so good..until the end of the day when we were about to go home..someone promised me to go and study with her in the end!!!! fark!!!!!!!!!i really hate my friends, they are the ones who can make u very happy and can also make u very sad..haizz...today attitude alot of ppl..sorry tiong meng who tired to tok to me and i ignore him..sorry dickson and ceyu bro who wave good bye to me but i ignore too!...haiz..tml is going to be a sianz day..buZz...

sad =(

2005-04-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

buzz..hai didnt do much today just finish mugging for chi test tml..failing it..my chi sarks! hai..troubled i feel so ashamed..i don know the meaning of true love i am disgusted by what i did last time..sorry! hai.................................................i cnt pass my standing broad jump........i fail my AMaths test...........this and that...............arghs..............................i hate the sec 3 life............................buzz.........

A chaotic life

2005-04-27T05:02:00.000-07:00

buZz..haha just came back from mac..completed my chemistry worksheet..so proud of myself =D anyway MYE exam is coming..hai..didnt really prepare..didnt have the will...so disappointed in myself..i just wan the exams to pass quickly! i have alot of things to do..like visit Mr Chong's house, make cheese cake, swimming, eat steamboat, go town, chalet,sleep late,play online games, slack, go hong kong arghs! vexed! i hate studying.i failed my Amaths test...i did regret abit lar..but it was really no time..cham..having a SS test tml..stressed..hais..i ahd like 4 tests in a week..can u believe it..adding to my problems, i found out something tat i regretted knowing..i should nt have known anything..nw i feel so disappointed in myself..and i am disgusted..hai...wil be interviewed nxt wednesday..for the headprefect position..i don wanna be the hp!! arghs!! although i enjoy serving n leading..hah! been mugging on maths this few days..begining to become Mr LOh..;p i am looking forward to the hong kong trip! hope everything will go smoothly oh yar btw...i still fail my standing broad jump! but who cares! =p! I wanna thank " Jiahao Vanessa Michelle kaying tommy tiong meng ting wei ceyu yitan ivy leslie claudia edwin seok hui mindy ying jing esther wanyee ying ming huiting valerie shijie keng siang xin lei chaun fu nurul atiqah aqilah atisya...u ask me why i thank them? i have my own reasons =x bUZz..Ps: if i leave out any1..its not because u are nt important...is just that i cnt really rmb who i wanna thank!

2005-04-22T22:51:00.000-07:00

bUzz..haha today was CCA recognition day..hmm we finally got to sang the national anthem after mush shouting n yelling by the UG members..i was appointed as the chairman of my photography club *expected*hah..CCa will resumed after MYE...toking abt MYE..i am nt going to do well..haven start revising yet! haizz..really hope i will do well w/o studying! recently a lot of things happened..bad n good..sometimes i just think its best for u to just go and mix with other people..haix..very vexed..highly irritable..having my hp interview nxt week..gOing to hong kong...bla bla bla bla..so much things..just to lazy to blog out..anyway today i had enjoyed myself..i ate the XXL chicken cutlet it was sooooooo delicious...bt my brother told me that the one in Taipei is even best! hmm...i have a dream..my dream is to earn lots of money n travel to all parts of the world...i dream..let it just remain as a dream until i can fufil it..i don wanna know the ans or the ending because i know i will feel very sad n disappointed and i would look down upon myself..i shouldnt even think abt knowing it! arghs! i brought it upon myself! hmm guess i have to go n practise my maths..buzz..

2005-04-16T23:49:00.000-07:00

buZz..im back..after like donkey years..i now feeling excited again...blogging! Anyway came back frm competition this afternoon, as usual we lost..but i've learnt alot of other science concepts..and learnt about this structure called the "London Eye"! i went to the competition with chuan fu a.ka Ah boat, ying ming, and huiting..had so much fun...espeacially ah boat -_- so cute..he actually know how to give sacarstic remarks n dsiao ppl..haha..even Mr Lee ended up calling him Ah boat..haha...hmm and because of the competition didnt mangane to study much..and worst of all..miss alot of lessons..arghs..we also failed to attend the prefects's interview...mdm mak was so angry..hmm..dunno what would happen..just let nature takes its course! anyway if u have realize, i change by blogskin..quite nice..it was this girl who helped me...bt i m nt going to mention her name..hah.mon this chaun fu's birthday!! woo and its also my party day! hope everything can run smoothly.Apparently i have " I am a big mouth" on my fore head..it very obvious wad i am tokin abt..nt going to tok abt it..i wonder if fans of this particular group is like tat..attract attention..petty..revengeful..maybe cuz i hate all of them..hAh. nt all la..but two of them..hmm i m gaming with leslie, Knight online..although i said with...but usually he train his..i train mine..haha..im looking forward to "after MYE" going to ahve a chalet or BBQ or a mass outing..hope can coem thru..hmm but doubt i will be free.with the investiture coming up..and i am in charge of programme booklet..give me a break! haiz..i failed my standing broad jump..so sad..arghs..i just cnt jump...doing CIP in Zoo? u think it will work? hope so..haha..iv been very irritable this few days..i get angry over the slightest thing..but none will care..rite? "I feel like i am facing all the problems by myself, with nothing but fake smiles n tears" we are nt as strong as ionic bonds..we are covalent bonds..tat form by joining other elements or compounds together..but i am an inert gas...i am stable! get wad i mean? i have nth to say...if all you understands..it will make my life a better one...buzz..

2005-04-03T22:07:00.000-07:00

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